A lot has happened in the past month or so.
The most dominant thing is my growing desperation to return to Mobile. This really started when Christina told me that she was not going to make it to Charleston in January. This made me very sad as no one has come to visit SC yet but I have been back to Mobile twice since I have graduated. I was looking forward to Christina and Colin coming as this is was just the small taste of Mobile that I needed. I miss all of my friends greatly! Any job that opens up in Mobile or near Mobile I have applied for, trying to get to Mobile permanently or at least for a long temporary time.
This obsession to get Mobile also stems from the fact that I am in a runt. Everyday I sit around and do a bunch of nothing. Work has picked up a little but not as much as I wanted. I enjoy going to work because it gets me out of the house. I still haven't found a group of friends that I can constantly hang out with like I had in Mobile. My group of friend changes, at this point, seems like every month. I watched "End of Watch" the other day and the movie about best friends who would put their lives in jeopardy for each other. I desire to have that person. Am I ready to get married? Yes...kind of. But how am I going to find a girl when I don't hang out with people? Hmmmm.
This leads me to my next point. I left Ridge Baptist in the beginning of June and was visited churches and found one, Newspring Church. Great church with a lot of great people. The pastor had a message called "What's Next?" The message was mainly about people being baptized but the pastor also talked about asking God what to do next. God spoke to me to return to Ridge and help with the formation of a college-aged ministry as part of the leadership team. (Side note: This is also why I am missing Mobile being around college students.) We started and it is going great. However the bible studies tend to lean toward making future decisions in college life. The problem? I have been through this and am past it. This is one reason why I left Ridge because they didn't offer anything for my age group or group for recent graduates. So I am at tough spot. Did I truly listen to God or did I return to Ridge just because it was something to do. Tough spot to be in.
So the runt continues. Of course working at a retail store with a degree in meteorology and being rejected by each job application doesn't help.
I need something to happen, a breakthrough.
